Gita

Iran ilman its people is not Iran. So when someone speaks so easily about the end of a civilization, I don't imagine only buildings falling. I imagine ordinary people. Not only its glorious past, but this fragile present.

When someone on the other side of the world talks about our lives like this, deciding about life and death without ever asking us, it feels careless, almost unbearable.

Yleensä se ei tapahtu. Päiväkirja on kuulunut 8. aprilin jälkeen ja muutaman päivän jälkeen liittyvät keskustelut Pakistanin ja Iranin välillä. Mutta ne eivät järjestä. Iran, jonka uudistuneen ekonomisen vahvistus Hormuzin rannalla, ei ole ilmaisua kapituloida. Hei, miten olet?

Last night there were car horns and chants of Allah Akbar. They're saying we won. I don't know what they've done. I don't know, but they're using the Strait of Hormuz as leverage. Right. At work, Gita's finding the situation increasingly difficult. She says non-urgent surgeries are being postponed to prepare for war casualties. The most of those who come into the emergency room are suffering from some form of anxiety or panic attacks. Gita, John...

I was on shift yesterday. I went into the pharmacy. I needed to enter a few medication codes for someone. A woman came in and said she wanted a thermometer. They'd given her a list of things to get for her child. Right. She asked the price. They said 200,000 tomans. She said, can you give it to me and I'll bring the money later? They said no. She genuinely didn't have the money. Seriously? No.

I'm still buying medicines. With your own money? Yeah, with my own money. You give them for free? Some of them, yeah. And a patient with chest pain. A chest pain patient should be admitted, monitored for at least six hours. Have cardiac tests twice, serial ECGs, and then treatment. Minimum six hours. But here, they don't do those tests.

He eivät edes anna taitoja, he tarvitsevat juuri säästöä. Miksi he eivät anna? He sanovat, että ei ole kouluja. Ovatko he todella täysiä? Kyllä. Se on mahtavaa. Oikein huonoa. Hieman huonoa kuin voin kuvitella.

Iran ja Yhdysvallat puhuvat keskusteluaan ensimmäistä kertaa vuoden 1979 islamilaisen revoluttiin. Suomalaisissa maahanmuuttajissa franttiset etsitykset jatkuvat yhdistämään kaksi puolta yhdessä. Mutta on taitoja. Ja moni of those Iranians who'd at first welcomed the US and Israeli attack, hoping it might help topple the Islamic Republic, are questioning their initial support for the war.

Alussa kaikki sanoivat, että ainakin jos Israel ja Yhdysvallat pysyvät ominaisuuksinaan, voimme löytää yhden yhteinen alue heidän kanssaan. Niin kuin regiimikäytäntö, eikö? Mutta nyt joka päivä on huonompi kuin aiemmin. Ja se blontti hänet tuli ja teki kaikkea huonommaksi. Oikeastaan, se on kuin jos he odottelivat vain. Kun januari-protesseja tapahtui, he tuli, kuin jos he olisivat Iranin ihmisten sääntöjä.

Juuri niin. Help is on the way. Honestly, we've seen nothing but destruction. And what's even left anymore, huh? If this regime falls, what's left that you could rebuild? I'm completely against the war now. God, how did we end up like this?

Pohjallisuudesta, rauhallisuudesta ja yllättyyksestä tulee raportteja kansainvälisestä mediasta, jossa on lakia, joilla on miehiä, joilla on lakia, joilla on miehiä, joilla on miehiä, joilla on miehiä, joilla on miehiä.

Minun isäni elää tässä niin, että minä en ole. Päivän päivänä, kun puhuin hänelle, hän kysyi minua uusistaan, kuten hän aina tekee. Tuon päivänä sanoin hänille, että kolme ihmistä oli tehty. Sitten hän sanoi, että tiedän.

When I mentioned the name of one of them, her voice suddenly went. She was deeply upset. She's always been against the death penalty. She often says that if you want to measure how controlling or dictatorial a government is, look at whether it's willing to abolish executions or not. For her, execution is not just a sentence. It's a tool to frighten people and keep them silent.

Her anger is not just about war. It's about a system. People opposed to the regime, who'd thought they'd found a voice back in January, have now been silenced. And attitudes to the war and the fragile ceasefire are creating rifts within families and between friends. Today I even argued with one of my closest friends. Perhaps because weeks of pressure had mounted up,

Whenever I tried to speak about the destruction and people being killed arbitrarily, that familiar sentence would come, Well, it's war. For me, this sentence isn't just a sentence. It's a way to erase the problem, a way to shrink the pain. It's as if all this immense suffering can be poured into one word. But I can't accept that. I cannot believe that saying it's war can justify everything.

Eikä aseellisen työntekijöiden tappaminen, infrastruktuurin vahvistus, eikä elämä, joka tulee parempi, vahvistettavampi ja onnistuttavampi, jokaisella päivällä. En ole koskaan halunnut vallan. Se, että jotkut puhuvat, että me kaikki haluamme sen, on minulle kestävää.

Yes, many have been waiting for years for change, for a rupture, for a blow to the regime. But this isn't the same as wanting war. I am tired of having to choose between the bad and the worse. It's hard for many Iranians to watch as the regime carries out carefully choreographed shows of force. Images coming out of Iran show women dressed head to toe in black carrying guns. And some of those with weapons are just teenagers.

In the last few days, state-run television has even shown instructions on how to shoot and calls for those who haven't done military service to sign up. But with the ceasefire at least holding for now, Leila's trying to carry on with her day-to-day life. She's studying French as best as she can, walking, reading, including, she says, a book about positive thinking.

Like many middle class Iranians, her life has been transformed. The authorities say two million people have lost their jobs because of the war. Leila sends a voice note. I used to be middle class, but now, according to the government's own figures, my income is below the poverty line.

I've spent years working in emergency departments. My work as a doctor has been all about doing my best. I know I'm good at my job. But people's struggles now are about day-to-day survival. I mean how to put bread on your family's table each day.