Glennon Doyle

I don't understand.

I think that I became sober by becoming a mom.

Just was like, I guess I'll be a mom now.

And I just created just an entire identity around mom.

And then I don't have any groups that I ever feel belonging in.

I always feel like I don't belong in this group.

Like my friends who feel belonging all the time, I just don't even understand what they're talking about.

Like I just...

always feel like I'm encroaching or uncomfortable or like looking in from the outside.

But this little crew of these three kids and Abby is like the first little community that I've ever felt belonging in.

Like I've ever felt like I could be my full self, that they love me for exactly who I am.

I mean, honestly, they're contractually obligated to stay with me.

They need money.

Well, actually, maybe that's it.

Like they need me, right?

They can't leave.

They are so poor.

So this idea of them going off and becoming their own thing, I just don't understand how to be.

I don't understand what I'm supposed to, like, make my decisions around or, like, scaffold plans around.

I feel like when Tish was walking away into her dorm, I just kept hearing that Stevie, the landslide song.