Glennon Doyle

Like I just knew women's sports was not as popular as men's sports.

So I was just like, all right, I'm just gonna run uphill.

I'm gonna just, this is what I'm gonna do for my life.

But there was some kind of internal acceptance

to feeling inferior to men.

And it wasn't until I was 36 years old standing on a stage when the rage finally came.

And it was when I was at the ESPYs and I was getting the same ICON ESPY award from ESPN, the ESPY nationally televised award show for sports.

I was getting the same award as Kobe and Peyton.

It wasn't until I walked off that stage knowing that the three of us were walking into three very different retirements that I actually let myself feel rage.

I think that so many of us don't want to express or even feel rage.

because it feels counterintuitive in some ways to love.

And so I just want to acknowledge anyone out there who might be seeing all that's going on in the world with the Epstein files and our government and all of it and feeling so confused and kind of muddled up and bottled up, it is okay that you haven't found the rage yet.

but I want to invite you because it's a vulnerability.

It is.

Letting yourself admit to yourself that this is something you've been carrying kind of silently.

I mean, this is going to make me cry a little, but like the locker room, the laughter is,

You know, like I think of myself as somebody who can just like brush it off.

And I think we've been doing it for so long.

And I keep giving men the benefit of the doubt, especially male athletes, the benefit of the doubt.

Well, they just don't know.