Glennon Doyle

So fury, I think that the way that you channel that, I mean, I can tell you that I recently started, well, not recently, a couple of years ago, a new round of eating disorder recovery, because now I think I understand that that's going to be something I'm dealing with for the rest of my life.

I thought until this recent bout that I was going to have like a victory line that I keep writing books and being like, and now it's done.

Yeah.

Last word.

I feel like that is my way of saying to God, like, okay, are we good?

Like, are we good?

And it keeps resurfacing.

And I think that's all right.

I think we all probably just have some sort of song or story that is our thing.

And we

circle around it over and over again.

And hopefully we're getting like a higher perspective on the thing over and over again.

Like hopefully we're not doing this.

We're sort of going up a mountain.

That's what I'm going for here.

So I was in another round of recovery and we hit Christmas and I had a relapse over Christmas last year.

And it was really confusing to me because I was talking to my therapist and I said, okay, I was just like sitting at a table eating.

And then the next thing I knew, I think my words were, I came to my senses and I was like full on the middle of like a huge binge and purge.

And I had no idea how I got from the table to that situation.

I could not explain it.