Glennon Doyle

And so over time, we started to try to slow down what actually happened in those moments.

And the best way I know how to describe it is I was sitting at a table with my beautiful family of origin, which is so full of love and so full of some fucked up stuff, okay?

Patterns, old patterns and old stuff.

And this thing happens to me when I'm almost 50, but when I get back around my family of origin, I'm seven.

Right.

So I think what happened is that there was a moment at the table where a pattern rose up that made me upset and uncomfortable and angry.

And the problem was that I was seven again.

So when you're seven or you're 10, you don't have any agency to deal with what is happening.

You can't say your thing.

You can't get up and leave.

You are stuck in the dynamic.

And so my way of dealing with that was to dissociate.

So dissociation is how you leave so you can stay.

And we all do it in different ways.

Mine was always related to food.

I just will eat and eat until I'm just gone.

I'm gone.

You have to leave so you can stay when you're a kid.

So the thing that I had to remember...

was in those moments that I'm not a kid anymore.