Goblin AKA Nick

But I think like

Yeah, I mean, I think harm reduction is the key.

And like for me, I like towards the end of my addiction, it wasn't fun the last few months.

And like I realized every day when I was waking up and getting high and doing all the shit I did, like I was not enjoying it.

Like feeling getting high felt good, but like.

I was starting to have those thoughts in the back of my head, like, man, like this isn't fun.

Like I wake up and I feel like shit every day.

I feel like shit right now while I'm high.

And if I do more, I'm just gonna feel more like shit.

And then that one day I remember it was like five or six in the morning.

It was rush hour, morning rush hour.

And I had been up for a few days doing blow and doing ketamine and doing my whole thing.

And I was having one of those really bad freak outs.

And I remember I was having these really bad heart palpitations and my hand on my chest.

And I thought I was about to have a heart attack.

My heart was going so fast.

And I had railed a bunch of fucking lines.

And at that point, it was just purely an anxiety thing.

And I remember...

I'm standing there in a cold sweat.