Goblin AKA Nick

I run out onto my porch and I sit down and I'm in my underwear, broad daylight.

And like, I live right off of main road at this point.

It's like all these people are driving past looking at me.

Didn't give a fuck.

I'm sitting there on my porch, like breathing in the fresh air, trying to do like breathing exercises to make myself like not die.

And like in that, that specific, like that moment itself was a pivotal point for me where I was like, dude, I can't do this shit anymore.

like this isn't fun and i've been having those like panic attacks more frequently and that was the one where it was like bro i can't do it anymore yeah your body basically was like all right and it was it was hard at first with most of the other drugs like xanax was a bitch for me to get rid of but coke was an easy one because i viewed coke as the source of my anxiety and paranoia and problems and i immediately

After that day, I remember I flushed my shit.

I got rid of it.

And my strategy that I tell everyone, I always recommend this to people if they're able to, is dude, just smoke your way out of it.

Like really genuinely smoke yourself so stupid every day.

Eat a bunch of edibles if you have to that like you can't even fathom fiending for something.

Because like the real thing that you need is like you need time for your brain to reset.

Like you need that chemical connection, that addiction to like,

reset and a lot of people like you're not going to get that time just sitting at the house you're not going to choose to do that but I found that like when I was eating a shitload of edibles and just ripping dabs all day and just getting violently high as often as I could that it would knock me out I'd sleep half the day and like enough time passed where eventually it was a thing of like

Hey, I'm not feeding so hard.

I'm about to punch a hole in the wall because I'm out of blow.

It's more of a thing of like, I'm in my head thinking like, man, Coke would be nice right now, but I don't have to act on that.

Yeah.

You know, and once you reach that point, it's kind of smooth sailing from there in my opinion.