Grayson

And at some point during that whole trip, he was going along and his rudder broke, which was used to steer the boat.

And so...

I think that was kind of the breaking point when his whole life kind of came crashing down around him.

And he realized that through all his crazy choices, he'd found himself in the middle of the Atlantic Ocean, weeks away from either coast, and sort of careening aimlessly with this sail full of wind and no way to steer it.

And so the way he told it was, you know, he let down his sail and he spent most of the time on his boat naked because the waves would make everything soaking wet.

And so all his clothes were heavy and wet.

And he realized he was, you know, getting out of food, out of water.

And so he would spend his days just trying to like pass out and sleep as much as possible, wake up and was like,

You know, depressed to be awake because he didn't want to deal with his life, I guess.

And would, you know, eat what beans he had or whatever and try to divide up his water so he could have enough and then go back to sleep and wake up in his soaking wet bed.

And I don't know, what made me so interested in that certain aspect is just imagining a probably 35-year-old guy just dealing with his own mind in a way that one rarely gets to deal with it.

And whatever feelings or thoughts you have late at night, whatever anxieties you have about who you are and what you're doing with your life, I just imagine that that was so magnified for him.

And he was up against that wall that we just imagined, but he was up against that wall that was like, this is the end of my life.

This is where my choices have brought me.

And so one morning he wakes up, I guess pretty much just assuming he's going to die out there, and he hears a voice on deck.

And so he goes up there, and at the back of the boat, right over his broken rudder, he sees this apparition.

like a spirit or a ghost or something.

And he said it was green and sort of small, but he said it was sort of looked like a pan kind of creature, like a ghost goat kind of thing.

And so that, but he hears his voice and it's coming from this goat and it's talking about whatever this and that.

And, uh, he sort of like starts to commune with it over the next couple of days and they talk and, uh,