Hank Azaria

And I don't know what the fuck is going on in here and how this alchemy is supposed to work.

And he just said, you know, it's something, isn't it, buddy?

God's a bunch of drunks in a room together.

I didn't know what he meant.

And he also used to say, like, alcoholism's a bully that there's no way you can beat up by yourself.

Like, forget it.

But if you got guys, you can take them.

And so, I think the only way to get to that place of being on my own side and being connected to myself is sharing that with other people, getting past that shame and that stuff that I'm sure I would never share with anybody else.

You hear that from people and you share yours with them, and then...

you learn to love yourself, because they seem to love you even though... And they seem to love each other, and they're all, like, worse fucked up than you are.

Yeah, or whatever you want to say.

I wondered the same things very often.

Look, you know, we have a lot of slogans, as you know, in the whole program.

One of my favorites is my mind is a dangerous neighborhood.

I don't go in there alone.

So I know that when I'm upset, when fear and anger are coming in, I just, I have to run it by folks.

That's never gonna change.

And then when I run it by folks I trust and love, then I'm free to kind of go, okay, like do a thing like craft a response or,

speak to myself lovingly about it or say let's give ourselves let's take accountability while also giving ourselves a break here but i i i'm still i'm better and better at doing that on my own with 25 years of recovery but i still i can't yeah but bafflingly you're probably not you're still way way off sometimes and you're like still

Still off?