Harry Jowsey

And this last week has been very interesting because I've been sitting down with friends and the topic has come up and it's been really intense. Yeah. Um, and I haven't really thought about it and I got, it was really like tough because with that grief, especially with a loved one, I just like put it to the back of my brain and like, I don't want to look at photos. I don't want to think about it.

I, I want to be on and I want to be happy and, and all this and all these good things 24 seven. But,

I, I want to be on and I want to be happy and, and all this and all these good things 24 seven. But,

I, I want to be on and I want to be happy and, and all this and all these good things 24 seven. But,

what i realized with this type of grief like when you lose a friend or whatever else like that that hurts that sucks like losing those people to suicide that was the hardest thing but then watching my dad die that was the most traumatic intense experience human experience i've ever ever encountered and it's weird and it's tough like how i explain it on my podcast was that it's kind of like you're standing at the beach and the waves the tide keeps going in and out the waves will hit you

what i realized with this type of grief like when you lose a friend or whatever else like that that hurts that sucks like losing those people to suicide that was the hardest thing but then watching my dad die that was the most traumatic intense experience human experience i've ever ever encountered and it's weird and it's tough like how i explain it on my podcast was that it's kind of like you're standing at the beach and the waves the tide keeps going in and out the waves will hit you

what i realized with this type of grief like when you lose a friend or whatever else like that that hurts that sucks like losing those people to suicide that was the hardest thing but then watching my dad die that was the most traumatic intense experience human experience i've ever ever encountered and it's weird and it's tough like how i explain it on my podcast was that it's kind of like you're standing at the beach and the waves the tide keeps going in and out the waves will hit you

Some days the tide goes all the way out and you don't really feel it, but then at night the tide knocks you over. And that's how it's been. I just keep feeling these waves of emotion come over me. But watching someone take their last breaths, it was a beautifully sad situation. Yeah. I wouldn't have wanted to be anywhere else in the world, but I also didn't want to be there. Like I really did.

Some days the tide goes all the way out and you don't really feel it, but then at night the tide knocks you over. And that's how it's been. I just keep feeling these waves of emotion come over me. But watching someone take their last breaths, it was a beautifully sad situation. Yeah. I wouldn't have wanted to be anywhere else in the world, but I also didn't want to be there. Like I really did.

Some days the tide goes all the way out and you don't really feel it, but then at night the tide knocks you over. And that's how it's been. I just keep feeling these waves of emotion come over me. But watching someone take their last breaths, it was a beautifully sad situation. Yeah. I wouldn't have wanted to be anywhere else in the world, but I also didn't want to be there. Like I really did.

The hardest thing was watching that. But the fact that I got to tell, like I had a whole speech that I told my dad, I was holding him. I was with him looking him in the eyes, crying, told him everything that I wanted to tell him before he went over to the other side. And then all my siblings and some of their kids and his friends got to say some stuff about,

The hardest thing was watching that. But the fact that I got to tell, like I had a whole speech that I told my dad, I was holding him. I was with him looking him in the eyes, crying, told him everything that I wanted to tell him before he went over to the other side. And then all my siblings and some of their kids and his friends got to say some stuff about,

The hardest thing was watching that. But the fact that I got to tell, like I had a whole speech that I told my dad, I was holding him. I was with him looking him in the eyes, crying, told him everything that I wanted to tell him before he went over to the other side. And then all my siblings and some of their kids and his friends got to say some stuff about,

The beautiful thing was my sister told me, she's like, if you hold their feet, you get all their magic powers. So I was holding my dad's feet. And I was like, okay, got to give me, come on, give me everything. Because you're not taking it because apparently it's going to go dark. So it's sausage. But I remember just sitting there holding his feet. And then because it's a drink, he took the drink.

The beautiful thing was my sister told me, she's like, if you hold their feet, you get all their magic powers. So I was holding my dad's feet. And I was like, okay, got to give me, come on, give me everything. Because you're not taking it because apparently it's going to go dark. So it's sausage. But I remember just sitting there holding his feet. And then because it's a drink, he took the drink.

The beautiful thing was my sister told me, she's like, if you hold their feet, you get all their magic powers. So I was holding my dad's feet. And I was like, okay, got to give me, come on, give me everything. Because you're not taking it because apparently it's going to go dark. So it's sausage. But I remember just sitting there holding his feet. And then because it's a drink, he took the drink.

So there's two options with the sister dying. First option is an IV and they'll inject you with this stuff and it kind of puts your lights out within a minute. But the drink is meant to take 10 to 15 minutes. But because of the state that my dad was in and he hadn't been eating the past couple months, it kind of hit him pretty quick.

So there's two options with the sister dying. First option is an IV and they'll inject you with this stuff and it kind of puts your lights out within a minute. But the drink is meant to take 10 to 15 minutes. But because of the state that my dad was in and he hadn't been eating the past couple months, it kind of hit him pretty quick.

So there's two options with the sister dying. First option is an IV and they'll inject you with this stuff and it kind of puts your lights out within a minute. But the drink is meant to take 10 to 15 minutes. But because of the state that my dad was in and he hadn't been eating the past couple months, it kind of hit him pretty quick.

So it's meant to be beautiful and they go to sleep and then they slowly stop breathing. But my dad snores.