Hilaria Baldwin

Spoiler alert.

But they might very much scare you.

And I had a miscarriage and everybody's like, you know, you try IVF.

I had never tried it before.

It's just much more secure.

I did.

That was the baby that I lost at like five months.

And I was like,

Maybe my body doesn't, you know, it's great for a lot of my friends.

They, that's how they had their families.

The only way they could have their family and maybe just didn't work for me.

And almost, you know, I, I think one of the things for women who suffer losses is we, I know we're not supposed to blame ourselves, but we often do.

And so I was just completely hard broken because, you know, at that point you basically have the baby, your milk comes in.

It's a very hard physical experience.

And so I was like, I'm not doing this again.

I find out I'm pregnant a month and a half later naturally with my fifth child.

And then I was like, I'm not carrying this other embryo.

So at the same time, my dear friend, who's our surrogate, she carried Mary Lou.

And that's how we did that.

And that's when I was like, sure.