Holly Deane-Johns

I didn't know it at the time, but I definitely was.

I was a year into my sentence at this stage and I got called up to the office and said, there's a phone call for you.

Well, that just doesn't happen unless it's bad news.

A friend said, your mother is dead.

She died of a heroin overdose.

At the time, my younger sister was in jail with me as well.

We got the option to either go and view her body or go to the funeral.

We both chose to go to the funeral and we said goodbye to our mother handcuffed to a screw.

So that was pretty traumatic because mum was everything to us.

She was just everything.

And to think of getting out of jail and her not being there, yeah, that was really, really hard.

Well, what ended up happening was when those two got busted, my...

My husband, he was meant to ring me that night just to make sure everything had gone okay, you know.

So when all the police were running at me, I had time to put my hand in my handbag and switch my phone off because I knew doing that, when Stephen rung and the phone was off, he would know something was wrong.

So when I got to jail, I got a message to him not to come back.

because my lawyer had told me he would end up serving about three times whatever I was serving.

So I knew then that I was doing five.

So the message I got to him was stay there, don't come back, because why should two of us be in jail?

I'm already in jail.

So after my work release finished, I got on a plane and went straight over to Thailand to be with him.