Holly Wainwright

I can't do that.

I'm pregnant.

And I thought I'd seen editors around me.

I know I love that industry and I was working really hard.

They took three months to four months maternity leave and then they came back full on.

And I was like, I don't think that's what I either want or can do.

So I turned it down and he was really surprised.

My editor was really surprised.

They were kind of like looking at me like I was crazy.

And when I think about that now with all the hindsight I have of what it's like being a working parent and everything, I don't regret saying no because other things happened in my career that were, I'm sure, arguably much better, but who knows.

But I could have done it.

I could have easily done it.

Because as it was, I stayed in the position I was in, took six months off, went back working full time, not getting paid an editor's salary, not getting the editor's glory.

So I could have done it.

My doubting myself about that was wrong.

So as I say, it's not a regret, but it was I think my instincts on that decision weren't right because I didn't know what I could do.

I don't think, I think I just didn't want to be pregnant and a new mom and have the job.

It's not that I didn't want them.

It's not that, so I didn't say I'm pregnant.

What do you think?