Hugh van Cuylenburg

Yeah.

Yeah.

I felt very similar.

I was literally last night lying in bed thinking because I was – Penny was out last night so I had the three of them and I was –

I kept saying, I was trying so hard to create this very fun night full of activities.

And now we're just yelling at each other, the three of them are fighting.

At one point, all three of them are fighting.

I couldn't tell who was fighting who.

I couldn't tell who was on team.

His team was so loud.

And I told myself a thousand times, no matter what happens, that I'm going to be so calm.

And I'm just going to like smile and just gently guide them in the right direction, whatever that, you know, whatever is required.

And...

After about an hour of it, I felt my only option was to yell louder than the three of them combined.

So I just yelled at them so loud.

And I was lying in bed just going, I've never yelled at anyone in my entire life, and I'm yelling at the people that I love most.

It's an awful feeling.

Because I feel like saying to them, guys, just so you know, this is not me.

You made me do that.

This is really not who I am, I promise.