Hugh van Kylenburg

But he said, like, you were getting a laugh at how bad you were the week before a week later.

And he's like, my God, this guy's already worked out how to do it.

And I was happy to hear, but that didn't go that when I came a third time I was on stage, I walked on and something told me it was just, I had an epiphany just because you hear that's all you need.

You don't need anyone to laugh.

You just, and that was the night where I really relaxed.

And that was again, early 1993.

And I'm still chasing the laughs I got that night because I floated out of the room that night.

Yeah, definitely.

It's the adrenaline of not being completely sure.

I mean, touch wood, I haven't had a bad one in a while.

But every now and again you can have one, you have a gig where, hang on, these are just sentences.

This is not funny.

I don't know what.

You've lost that magic thing that makes it funny.

So, yeah, definitely.

It's the risk involved, which obviously is not real risk.

And I know the first night I died on stage, which is obviously I didn't die, but when I walked, I got home, I was humiliated.

But then I thought, I'm not physically hurt.

I actually thought the only person who's hurting now is me and I'm only hurting because that's how I'm choosing to, you know, think about this.

And I actually had that thought at the age of 22 of, like, I've made the decision to be upset here, but if I don't want to be upset, I don't have to be.