Hunter Biden

Now, I think that you can relapse and people have been able to, but I don't think that I can.

And so I was given that gift of utter, complete desperation to remain clean and sober.

And you've been through it, and that's a beautiful thing to have.

And the other thing that it did for me is it forced me on a daily basis to realize how fucking lucky I am.

You know?

I don't know.

I mean, I talk about it in my book, but it

I was making a decision on a daily basis to kill myself, but it was the coward's way.

How would you have done it?

Well, drinking and drugging, to the degree that I was.

I was drinking, you know, a handle of vodka a day.

I mean, which is worse than, you know, the amount of crack that I was smoking.

The problem with the crack is the positions that it puts you in in order to get it.

That was the most dangerous part about the crack.

The most dangerous part to my physical body was alcohol, by far and away, in terms of the way in which it impacts every organ in your body.

And it's the only drug that you can die from other than benzos for withdrawing from.

And so that's what I was doing to myself.

And when I got, when I accepted the miracle of believing that there's something greater than myself,

that could help me get clean and sober.

I lived with that realization at the front of my brain every morning that I woke up, and still do, and still do.