Hunter Biden

It never goes away necessarily.

There's always the answer that is being presented to you by the thing that you trust the most, which is your brain.

And what it says is, if you don't want to feel this way, whatever the way is, or if you want to feel this way even more, I have the answer for you.

And I was on a plane by myself, and I had a drink.

And that drink in 2010, seven years almost of sobriety,

Started a cycle of relapse and recovery and relapse and recovery in which it was really hard for me to be honest with the people that love me because I just wanted to hide it.

I just wanted it to go away.

And I thought, okay, I'll get through this cycle and, you know, I'll sleep it off this weekend and that's it.

I'm done.

and that would last a week, and then it would last three months, and then I went back to rehab, and then it became kind of, then I came back, and I started, I mean, talk about, you talk about this all the time, which I love that you do, it was big pharma, you know what I mean, I had shingles, and so somebody prescribed me like 52 oxy, like, I mean, ridiculous, and I started that, and

And then I started drinking again, and the prescription ran out, and then this cycle just started to happen.

But when my brother died, it all fell apart.

Bo and I, uh, were, uh, and like, I don't purport that our relationship was unique or that his loss was greater than my, my loss of him was greater than anybody else's loss of their brother or someone that they deeply, deeply loved.

But when my mom and sister and my Bo and I were in that car accident in 1972, um,

And we survived.

It was the two of us every day.

We're a year and a day apart.

We talked every day.

I mean, except when he was in Iraq, I literally probably talked to my brother every day.

And, um,