Hunter Biden

And nobody fully, I think...

captures the power of crack cocaine, nor explains it correctly.

It's all so wrapped up in a lot of prejudice and bias based upon kind of the racial profile that people that, you know, crack addicts and, you know, at least if you're from my generation in the 90s in which, you know,

if, you know, he was introduced to the streets and just tore communities apart.

And the thing that truly tore communities apart was not necessarily the addiction.

It was a response to it.

And and so anyway, long story short, is that's, you know, I actively sought out the thing that I thought was the most destructive thing that I could do to myself at that moment in time beyond physically harming myself.

Finally, at the end, I mean, that was in 2000, I think, I get my years a little bit mixed up, but that was a year after Bo's death, 2016, where I basically stayed sober and attempted to stay sober for that year period, in which I was under the care of somebody, a professional.

And the thing that wanted me to stay sober

sober and clean is my family.

My three oldest daughters are

Like, they were my whole world.

And I was an enormous, you know, I was like a constant presence in their life because for the vast majority of it, I was clean and sober.

And I was not a user or a drinker in that I would ever kind of do it around them.

I don't think that there are more than maybe a handful of times, and I can't speak for them,

All I can say is this, is that I was a very present parent.

And then all of a sudden, I was gone.

all of a sudden I was completely unavailable.

And I don't think there's anything more traumatic that you can do than that.

And so to be there and then not be there.