Isaac

So we missed, both my wife and I missed the pregnancy.

I gotta tell you, it's the most bizarre thing when someone just hands you a little tiny little baby and says, this is your son.

And I didn't even get to see, see the birth, but we, we spent two and a half months in the NICU and it was just, um, just brutal, man.

Like I, uh, you know, just like every day was like such intense, um, traumatic things.

And, uh,

And I felt so powerless, you know, I, I've never been a dad before, so I didn't know how to, um, I don't know what the point of a dad, you know, what a dad is supposed to do, but I do feel like part of it is to protect and to like, you know, I don't know, that's maybe a cultural way of thinking, but, you know, I couldn't, there was so little I felt like I could do to help this little boy.

Um,

So finally came home and, you know, he came home with a feeding tube because he's still working on how to bottle feed.

And man, I, you know, there's been so much trauma in my family when it comes to little kids.

you know, lots of miscarriages and man, I didn't think I was going to be this emotional.

Yeah.

You're good, brother.

So, you know, cousins and, and, you know, just my family, everything from car accidents where little infants died to like, you know, pneumonia.

And so I,

my family, our culture is, I'm an immigrant and our, our culture is, is very sort of Orthodox, uh, religious.

Okay.

And so because of all this trauma, tell me what that means.

Yeah.

You know, teach me about that.

Yeah.