Isaac

Sentía que necesitaba salir de ahí, ir a casa.

Esa sensación no se me quitaba.

En cuanto llegué y mi madre me vio, de inmediato noto que algo no estaba bien.

Yeah.

How do I combat the shame I feel at being a first-time father?

So at the end of last year, my wife and I found out we were pregnant.

And I'm so excited.

First time pregnancy.

And we went in for our first scan.

the ultrasound scan, and the doctors immediately said that there's something big wrong.

So he was really small, and so they wanted to do some further testing.

And there was a variety of issues, but the main one is that it was very likely that he was going to have trisomy 21 or Down syndrome.

Down syndrome, yeah.

And so we got designated as a high-risk pregnancy.

My wife went in twice a week.

I went with her to get scans and make sure that everything was okay.

And every week we would go in, they would just tell us more and more stuff that they thought was wrong, you know, from issues with his lungs to, you know, just... I became so...

I dreaded going to those appointments because every week they would say, well, we think this could also be wrong.

It could be nothing or it could be this very severe thing.

So then he came at 33 weeks and we spent, it was an emergency C-section.