Isaac

Okay.

So probably a good way to think about it for anyone who is, uh, religious is maybe more like, uh, uh,

God will only love me if I perform well and if I, um, follow the rules, you know?

Okay.

Exactly.

And, you know, it's, it's, that's the culture we grew up in.

And my parents, you know, they, they, um, they sort of,

moved my brother and I out of that, that culture because they saw how, um, how it was, it wasn't a healthy way of, of, of living, but then tragedy after tragedy after tragedy.

And so when I, when I told my family, you know, that our little guy was going to have

I think everyone was in shock.

We didn't know anything about Down syndrome.

And so part of it became like trying to appease God and just be like, hey, please remove your anger or whatever from us.

And I didn't know that they were doing this, but they didn't know what to do.

So this is part of what they were trying to do just to help.

And then when I found out about it,

It just broke my heart, man, because I don't want this little kid to be born into that legacy.

But I don't blame my parents or I don't blame my family, you know, because it's been it's been a rough time.

It's been rough.

And grief makes you do crazy things.

Of course, of course.