Jackie

You know when you leave a pre-record, which means, for those of you that don't know, we pre-recorded that thing earlier in the day.

And you know sometimes when you do that, you go home and think, geez, I might give him a ring and just get him to pull that out.

I wasn't even thinking like that.

Because I was so sidelined by what was going on for me.

But when you try and put context around stuff, you sound defensive and it looks as though you're making excuses.

So, you know, 12 months later, I think it's OK to talk about Dad now.

I don't think it explains away the situation I was in.

But to answer your question, Carl, the grief that I was going through was what was the overriding... Like, losing the job was actually, you know...

not as important as what was going on.

And if I'd wanted to, could I have pushed back and fought?

Probably.

I said to them... We'll just let it dissolve.

I said to them, let's go our separate ways.

I'd had enough.

I'd had a couple of extended breaks leading up to it where I was just burnt out by the whole thing.

And I had this narrative being built around me in the press that I'd somehow become a disaster.

Oh, I read that about me too.

Because I got pissed on Grand Final Day.

Yeah, a couple of seasons.

Then the story became that I'd been thrown out of the MCG, which never happened either.