Jacoby Shaddix

And my stepdad now, it's like, he's my guy.

Like Bill Roach is the man.

Okay, cool.

And, uh, you know, he's, uh, he was just, he taught me like consistency.

Um, but I was, I'm just so much different than him.

I have this reckless, I had this reckless spirit and this free spirit and this creativity in me that just needed to like come out.

And, uh, you know, my...

He provided this place that was safe, but I always just had this like hole in me and I didn't know how to really come to terms with it until I had a bit of reconciliation with my father and understood who he was and why he made the decisions he made.

You know, and my mom always warned me.

She's like, you are like... She would point things out in me that reminded her of my father, good and bad.

And she was always like, you know, you better be careful because like, you know, this drinking thing, like your dad was...

you had a bad problem with it, you know?

Yeah, she was trying to like warn me like, hey, and I've just, I'm that type of knucklehead.

Like I gotta go hit the wall at a hundred miles an hour myself to really like to learn.

Uh, I, I started, I think, well, my mom said when I was young, they had these raging parties and I would like go around and like sip the bottoms of the drinks, but that's just like, yeah, I was like, I was just that young kid, you know, uh, just wanting to, you know, get out, get outside of myself and not feel like myself, I think.

Um, but it wasn't until I was, uh, I think it was like,

And my first experiment went horrific, horrifically wrong.

So, well, one of them was the first,

The first time I got caught, my parents had vodka and they kept it in the freezer and I kept drinking it.

And then this wasn't the bad one, but I kept drinking it and then refilling it with water.