Jake Haendel

And they just... Ich war in meiner Schuhe. Katie begann sofort zu weinen. Sie war wie weinend. Und dann sind wir in diesen Sonnenraum gegangen. Sie haben mich da reingelegt. Das war, als Sophie sich unterbrochen hat. Sie begann zu weinen. Sie sagten, wir dachten, du wärst tot. Und... I don't remember Eli crying. I remember Eli being pretty. Just like taking all in, kind of listening.

And they just... Ich war in meiner Schuhe. Katie begann sofort zu weinen. Sie war wie weinend. Und dann sind wir in diesen Sonnenraum gegangen. Sie haben mich da reingelegt. Das war, als Sophie sich unterbrochen hat. Sie begann zu weinen. Sie sagten, wir dachten, du wärst tot. Und... I don't remember Eli crying. I remember Eli being pretty. Just like taking all in, kind of listening.

There were no questions. More just like, miss you, love you. It was a good visit. It was a heavy visit. So I didn't know any of this yet. People were looking for me for a very long time.

There were no questions. More just like, miss you, love you. It was a good visit. It was a heavy visit. So I didn't know any of this yet. People were looking for me for a very long time.

Meine Step-Sister Katie, sie hat diesen Wunsch von Find Jake. Und einer von Katies Freunden, Mandy, war Freund auf Facebook mit meiner Frau. Und Katie und sie würden ihre Webseite stecken, um mir irgendwelche Hinweise zu geben. And that's when we learned, or my family learned about Ellen, my wife, posting as me when I was on hospice. So I'm locked in. Can't move. Can't do anything.

Meine Step-Sister Katie, sie hat diesen Wunsch von Find Jake. Und einer von Katies Freunden, Mandy, war Freund auf Facebook mit meiner Frau. Und Katie und sie würden ihre Webseite stecken, um mir irgendwelche Hinweise zu geben. And that's when we learned, or my family learned about Ellen, my wife, posting as me when I was on hospice. So I'm locked in. Can't move. Can't do anything.

And she's posting as Jacob Handel on Facebook. My wife is taking excellent care of me. As if I was on a fucking beach in Maui, like... Can't talk right now, guys. I'm enjoying the surf. Life's, you know, posting as if I can post. Which is like interesting and wild and crazy.

And she's posting as Jacob Handel on Facebook. My wife is taking excellent care of me. As if I was on a fucking beach in Maui, like... Can't talk right now, guys. I'm enjoying the surf. Life's, you know, posting as if I can post. Which is like interesting and wild and crazy.

This started early. She took control of my stuff. Two months after diagnosis, I mean, she took my phone when I could still use my phone. But the rationale then was, I don't want you to get drugs.

This started early. She took control of my stuff. Two months after diagnosis, I mean, she took my phone when I could still use my phone. But the rationale then was, I don't want you to get drugs.

There's nothing like, you got six months to live to make you sober up. She had everything, and I never got her back since then.

There's nothing like, you got six months to live to make you sober up. She had everything, and I never got her back since then.

Und ich habe gesagt, wenn du zurückkommst, können wir dir etwas Zeit dedizieren, um mir zu helfen, einige Dinge zu schreiben? Er hat gesagt, ja.

Und ich habe gesagt, wenn du zurückkommst, können wir dir etwas Zeit dedizieren, um mir zu helfen, einige Dinge zu schreiben? Er hat gesagt, ja.

What I wanted to write down was huge. And we went outside. That was like one of my first times outside. This was like a week after that visit. And we went outside to this like gazebo. And he pushed me up there at the iPad. And he was still having a hard time understanding what I was saying. And it took me like... Vier oder fünf Mal, um jedes Wort zu bekommen. Okay.

What I wanted to write down was huge. And we went outside. That was like one of my first times outside. This was like a week after that visit. And we went outside to this like gazebo. And he pushed me up there at the iPad. And he was still having a hard time understanding what I was saying. And it took me like... Vier oder fünf Mal, um jedes Wort zu bekommen. Okay.

Und dann war er, er brachte das Thema zu meinem Vater. Er war so, du sollst wirklich, wirklich deinen Vater kontaktieren. Und ich war so, aber warum?

Und dann war er, er brachte das Thema zu meinem Vater. Er war so, du sollst wirklich, wirklich deinen Vater kontaktieren. Und ich war so, aber warum?

I commented to Jake about how meaningful this must have been to his dad. There was hope in the letter. The door was nudged open. Yeah, and I can honestly say at that juncture, I put in that hope to be nice. Man, it's so fucked up to say out loud. Yeah, alright. Internally, there wasn't hope yet. In that letter I gave hope.

I commented to Jake about how meaningful this must have been to his dad. There was hope in the letter. The door was nudged open. Yeah, and I can honestly say at that juncture, I put in that hope to be nice. Man, it's so fucked up to say out loud. Yeah, alright. Internally, there wasn't hope yet. In that letter I gave hope.