Jake Haendel

My wife was around for this, and there's something I couldn't... Again, I'm looking at the ceiling, mostly. Unless when people lean over me, that's the only time I could see them. But I could tell by something in her tone of her voice, she was frustrated with these healthcare professionals. And I couldn't understand why, because they're all doing their very best to help me.

My wife was around for this, and there's something I couldn't... Again, I'm looking at the ceiling, mostly. Unless when people lean over me, that's the only time I could see them. But I could tell by something in her tone of her voice, she was frustrated with these healthcare professionals. And I couldn't understand why, because they're all doing their very best to help me.

So that's when I first noticed something odd going on. I would expect, oh my God, this is amazing. Honey, honey, this is great, you know. There was no, like, real communication from her to me at that time. It was just her giving the doctors what I interpreted as grief. Her giving them grief. But on the other side of the coin, every now and again...

So that's when I first noticed something odd going on. I would expect, oh my God, this is amazing. Honey, honey, this is great, you know. There was no, like, real communication from her to me at that time. It was just her giving the doctors what I interpreted as grief. Her giving them grief. But on the other side of the coin, every now and again...

She'd be like, honey, I'm, you know, like when doctors weren't in the room, I'm gonna, I'm gonna make it so you get into spalding. And like, so there was flashes and glimpses of positivity and supporting this from her. But it was, it was strange. I was confused with what was happening.

She'd be like, honey, I'm, you know, like when doctors weren't in the room, I'm gonna, I'm gonna make it so you get into spalding. And like, so there was flashes and glimpses of positivity and supporting this from her. But it was, it was strange. I was confused with what was happening.

And they go, is it A, is it E, is it I? And you pick the row. And then once you pick the row, and I would signal the row by, you know, saying it on my tongue. And so if I, you know, said A, they would go, is it A, is it B, is it C, is it D? And when I got to D, and then they sorted the process over. So it's really painful to do when you're trying to have a conversation.

And they go, is it A, is it E, is it I? And you pick the row. And then once you pick the row, and I would signal the row by, you know, saying it on my tongue. And so if I, you know, said A, they would go, is it A, is it B, is it C, is it D? And when I got to D, and then they sorted the process over. So it's really painful to do when you're trying to have a conversation.

So I noticed Ellen, my wife, beginning to pull away. I didn't think of it as her pulling away, but I more noticed something strange or off. She had definitely not been visiting as much. Which, you know, I didn't blame her because, you know, she was my only caregiver during hospice. Her choice, by the way, being the only one. She needs a breaker. I'm viewing it that way. And...

So I noticed Ellen, my wife, beginning to pull away. I didn't think of it as her pulling away, but I more noticed something strange or off. She had definitely not been visiting as much. Which, you know, I didn't blame her because, you know, she was my only caregiver during hospice. Her choice, by the way, being the only one. She needs a breaker. I'm viewing it that way. And...

I'm making these kind of huge gains in therapy in the scheme of things. But to me, they're still small in the scheme of things. But coming from where I came, everyone's like, it's pretty amazing what's happening here. I'm in PT and they got me in this program.

I'm making these kind of huge gains in therapy in the scheme of things. But to me, they're still small in the scheme of things. But coming from where I came, everyone's like, it's pretty amazing what's happening here. I'm in PT and they got me in this program.

walking harness rolling cart machine and they were trying to see if i could like take a few steps with like tons of support on either side people moving my legs and my wife and my mother-in-law walk in and all the therapists people are like oh my god so exciting look look what your husband's doing

walking harness rolling cart machine and they were trying to see if i could like take a few steps with like tons of support on either side people moving my legs and my wife and my mother-in-law walk in and all the therapists people are like oh my god so exciting look look what your husband's doing

I saw her face because I haven't been vertical in quite some time, and she just looked not happy at all. She looked a little disappointed. She was mad. A few days after this, my wife and mother-in-law, I've had, like, you know, I'm getting beat up in therapy. I'm exhausted. They come in the room. And my wife's like, hi, honey. Give me a kiss. And she's like, all right.

I saw her face because I haven't been vertical in quite some time, and she just looked not happy at all. She looked a little disappointed. She was mad. A few days after this, my wife and mother-in-law, I've had, like, you know, I'm getting beat up in therapy. I'm exhausted. They come in the room. And my wife's like, hi, honey. Give me a kiss. And she's like, all right.

Mom is going to, like, say a few things. I'll leave you guys alone. Leave the room. Hey. And my mother-in-law was like, oh, honey, I don't know how to say this. I don't know why I'm saying this. Ellen kind of needs a divorce. And I'm like, I mean, I just started like, I had this very weird scream, cry thing. That was the only thing verbally I could do. I could cry, I could scream, I could yell.

Mom is going to, like, say a few things. I'll leave you guys alone. Leave the room. Hey. And my mother-in-law was like, oh, honey, I don't know how to say this. I don't know why I'm saying this. Ellen kind of needs a divorce. And I'm like, I mean, I just started like, I had this very weird scream, cry thing. That was the only thing verbally I could do. I could cry, I could scream, I could yell.

But it sounded very strange. I was told from people at Spalding that I sounded like a wounded animal.

But it sounded very strange. I was told from people at Spalding that I sounded like a wounded animal.