Jake Haendel

And I just remember getting into my mom's bed and kind of was like, yeah, like maybe this is it for me and kind of fell asleep. And I just remember next thing I know is I'm kind of being shaken, like Jake wake up and patches are being ripped off me. And yeah, didn't die. Definitely didn't clean up my act either.

And I just remember getting into my mom's bed and kind of was like, yeah, like maybe this is it for me and kind of fell asleep. And I just remember next thing I know is I'm kind of being shaken, like Jake wake up and patches are being ripped off me. And yeah, didn't die. Definitely didn't clean up my act either.

But a few days after her death, I get a notice on my mom's door, like kind of like notice to vacate type thing. You got to pack up your shit and leave. I was in no place to pack up all my mom's shit. And Adrian helped organize like 20 people, 20 high school kids to help pack all my mother's shit up while I was just besides myself. I remember going through my mom's closet.

But a few days after her death, I get a notice on my mom's door, like kind of like notice to vacate type thing. You got to pack up your shit and leave. I was in no place to pack up all my mom's shit. And Adrian helped organize like 20 people, 20 high school kids to help pack all my mother's shit up while I was just besides myself. I remember going through my mom's closet.

I would say my mom's room alone for the most part. And I remember going through my mom's closet and I found this box with like a bunch of those black one subject old school notebooks. It was like poetry my mom had written over the last decade about the cancer and like how it felt

I would say my mom's room alone for the most part. And I remember going through my mom's closet and I found this box with like a bunch of those black one subject old school notebooks. It was like poetry my mom had written over the last decade about the cancer and like how it felt

and I just remember reading like one passage, and I mean, it, it, oh god, it was so sad, it was just like, I feel this cancer in my bones, it's like eating away at me, and I'm, I'm losing energy, and I can't keep going, and maybe not poetry, more like journaling, and And just like, you know, my only regret is leaving my kids. And it just made me so sad. And I couldn't even keep reading it.

and I just remember reading like one passage, and I mean, it, it, oh god, it was so sad, it was just like, I feel this cancer in my bones, it's like eating away at me, and I'm, I'm losing energy, and I can't keep going, and maybe not poetry, more like journaling, and And just like, you know, my only regret is leaving my kids. And it just made me so sad. And I couldn't even keep reading it.

And someone stole these from me. I think her best friend Lynn kind of took them. Because I think she was worried about me. And she was like, you don't need to read that. And I never got to read them. I don't think I'd want to anymore. Anyways, funeral happens. I'm like, num, num, num, num, num. And I need a place to live. My dad's like, you can come to Texas and live with me.

And someone stole these from me. I think her best friend Lynn kind of took them. Because I think she was worried about me. And she was like, you don't need to read that. And I never got to read them. I don't think I'd want to anymore. Anyways, funeral happens. I'm like, num, num, num, num, num. And I need a place to live. My dad's like, you can come to Texas and live with me.

And I'm like, no, I got friends. And also the biggest thing that kept me around was drugs. My ability to make money. I was like... you know, I can't leave here, Eli's like, you can come live with me, but no more drugs, man, so that was out, all right, so I got my mom's dog, love this dog, Ravi, me and Adrian had him for years, and I'm in my car with the dog, crying, drunk, fucking,

And I'm like, no, I got friends. And also the biggest thing that kept me around was drugs. My ability to make money. I was like... you know, I can't leave here, Eli's like, you can come live with me, but no more drugs, man, so that was out, all right, so I got my mom's dog, love this dog, Ravi, me and Adrian had him for years, and I'm in my car with the dog, crying, drunk, fucking,

Wondering where I'm going to stay. I'm going around to hotels. And they won't rent me a room because I'm under 21. I'm like, fuck. I finally go to the best western extended stay. One of the last ones on the strip.

Wondering where I'm going to stay. I'm going around to hotels. And they won't rent me a room because I'm under 21. I'm like, fuck. I finally go to the best western extended stay. One of the last ones on the strip.

and there was kind of a younger dude behind the counter and i was like dude like i'm a mess i need a place to stay for a month i got cash and he's like all right you got id and i'm like no because i didn't want to give him like under 21 This guy kind of like felt bad and he's like, all right, dude, like thousand bucks for the month. He's like, no one's here.

and there was kind of a younger dude behind the counter and i was like dude like i'm a mess i need a place to stay for a month i got cash and he's like all right you got id and i'm like no because i didn't want to give him like under 21 This guy kind of like felt bad and he's like, all right, dude, like thousand bucks for the month. He's like, no one's here.

He's like, occasionally we have a convention and I'm like, I got a dog by the way. And he's like, he's like, just don't bring in the lobby. Okay. Okay, so at least I have a home base now. It was really a miserable time, actually. And shit just kept happening. Like, you know, I'm driving a bunch of weed down 85 in Mulvorrow and blue lights gone behind me.

He's like, occasionally we have a convention and I'm like, I got a dog by the way. And he's like, he's like, just don't bring in the lobby. Okay. Okay, so at least I have a home base now. It was really a miserable time, actually. And shit just kept happening. Like, you know, I'm driving a bunch of weed down 85 in Mulvorrow and blue lights gone behind me.

And I'm like, fuck, probably drunk and high. Cop comes to the window and he's like, this your car? And I'm like, yeah. He's like, okay. Get out of the car. I'm like, what did I do? Out of the car. I'm like, what the fuck? Get out of the car. He's like, you're driving an uninsured stolen vehicle. And I'm like, what? And he's like, who's Marjorie Wallen? And I'm like, it's my mom.

And I'm like, fuck, probably drunk and high. Cop comes to the window and he's like, this your car? And I'm like, yeah. He's like, okay. Get out of the car. I'm like, what did I do? Out of the car. I'm like, what the fuck? Get out of the car. He's like, you're driving an uninsured stolen vehicle. And I'm like, what? And he's like, who's Marjorie Wallen? And I'm like, it's my mom.