Jake Haendel

And I go to reach for it, and I have no stability, and I just fall like a sack of potatoes, right? And I hit my head on the bureau, and I slid up to the floor, and everything went black. I thought I had died. Apparently, it was like a bloody mess. All I remember is my eyes kind of like come to and this guy's over and he's like, you're okay, you're okay, you're going to be okay.

And I go to reach for it, and I have no stability, and I just fall like a sack of potatoes, right? And I hit my head on the bureau, and I slid up to the floor, and everything went black. I thought I had died. Apparently, it was like a bloody mess. All I remember is my eyes kind of like come to and this guy's over and he's like, you're okay, you're okay, you're going to be okay.

And I'm like, am I dead? It was such a weird sensation in my body of this like tingling and everything was numb and it was like my body was humming. And now my wife and my dad happened to be walking in as all this is happening. I remember she comes into the room all kind of gung-ho and happy and immediately is like, what? Oh my God. How did you let this happen to my husband? Where's the ambulance?

And I'm like, am I dead? It was such a weird sensation in my body of this like tingling and everything was numb and it was like my body was humming. And now my wife and my dad happened to be walking in as all this is happening. I remember she comes into the room all kind of gung-ho and happy and immediately is like, what? Oh my God. How did you let this happen to my husband? Where's the ambulance?

All I know from that moment forward, my left side was never the same. It was kind of numbish and not responding. Not like I throw the ball too much nowadays, you know. We can show you guys on camera how that would go. I'd aim for Gordon's head and I'd break that window. Strong-willed and insanely amazing advocate wifey was like, you're not going back there.

All I know from that moment forward, my left side was never the same. It was kind of numbish and not responding. Not like I throw the ball too much nowadays, you know. We can show you guys on camera how that would go. I'd aim for Gordon's head and I'd break that window. Strong-willed and insanely amazing advocate wifey was like, you're not going back there.

It was hard because I was a full-time job.

It was hard because I was a full-time job.

I was two people's full-time jobs, and I could have been team of six full-time jobs.

I was two people's full-time jobs, and I could have been team of six full-time jobs.

I was trying to put on the best attitude, really for my wife and other family too, but really for the wife because she was giving up really everything, her late 20s, to take care of me. I was getting emotional. I was getting sad, depressed about how my life ended up, how it was going to end, how much my father and my wife and... how sad their family was about this.

I was trying to put on the best attitude, really for my wife and other family too, but really for the wife because she was giving up really everything, her late 20s, to take care of me. I was getting emotional. I was getting sad, depressed about how my life ended up, how it was going to end, how much my father and my wife and... how sad their family was about this.

and my body was becoming disfigured in front of my own eyes. I was just not really in a good headspace. I also felt like I was just always asking my wife to do something else for me. I felt like I was asking too much. I also wanted to have nice evenings. I obviously wanted romantic connection and sex and kissing and that kind of stuff, which in this situation was very hard.

and my body was becoming disfigured in front of my own eyes. I was just not really in a good headspace. I also felt like I was just always asking my wife to do something else for me. I felt like I was asking too much. I also wanted to have nice evenings. I obviously wanted romantic connection and sex and kissing and that kind of stuff, which in this situation was very hard.

I'd verbally say, like, come live with me or, you know, whatever. She'd be like, I just feel like I'm going to hurt you and I don't feel comfortable. I get it, you know, and obviously I'm not going to force this upon, you know. I remember the last time I actually had sex with her. I want to say that was like before Parsons Hill.

I'd verbally say, like, come live with me or, you know, whatever. She'd be like, I just feel like I'm going to hurt you and I don't feel comfortable. I get it, you know, and obviously I'm not going to force this upon, you know. I remember the last time I actually had sex with her. I want to say that was like before Parsons Hill.

Yeah. She was like, I can't do this. I can't do this. I feel like I'm raping you. And I'm like, but you're not. Like, I feel like I'm hurting you. I feel like I'm raping you.

Yeah. She was like, I can't do this. I can't do this. I feel like I'm raping you. And I'm like, but you're not. Like, I feel like I'm hurting you. I feel like I'm raping you.

I'm sure it was very hard. It was hard for her. It was very hard for me. But I really was in so much pain. My skin was burning. Simple touch could hurt. She would only touch me with the glove. I'm not going to say I didn't enjoy it or anything, but it also felt to me like she felt it was another one of her tasks. It's like, get this out of the way.

I'm sure it was very hard. It was hard for her. It was very hard for me. But I really was in so much pain. My skin was burning. Simple touch could hurt. She would only touch me with the glove. I'm not going to say I didn't enjoy it or anything, but it also felt to me like she felt it was another one of her tasks. It's like, get this out of the way.