Jake Haendel

Let's get into this, man.

Let's get into this, man.

Not good.

Not good.

I'm Jake Handel. This is my story.

I'm Jake Handel. This is my story.

I noticed my driving was a little off. And, you know, I used to be a fairly good driver, but I was just soaring all the time. And I would say to myself, like, come on, Jake, pull it together. At this time in my life, I... You know, I was doing a lot of drugs and a lot of reasons in my life to make me sort of at the wheel or act weird. But this was not baseline at all.

I noticed my driving was a little off. And, you know, I used to be a fairly good driver, but I was just soaring all the time. And I would say to myself, like, come on, Jake, pull it together. At this time in my life, I... You know, I was doing a lot of drugs and a lot of reasons in my life to make me sort of at the wheel or act weird. But this was not baseline at all.

And I knew something was wrong, but I was in denial, I guess. I was just avoiding it and didn't even think it was a big deal.

And I knew something was wrong, but I was in denial, I guess. I was just avoiding it and didn't even think it was a big deal.

The first thing I would do before I'd brush my teeth is freebase a little heroin off tinfoil. And, um... I had no time for that and to brush my teeth that was already late. So I hopped in my car and, um, I just, you know, you need that fix when you're that hooked on the substance like this.

The first thing I would do before I'd brush my teeth is freebase a little heroin off tinfoil. And, um... I had no time for that and to brush my teeth that was already late. So I hopped in my car and, um, I just, you know, you need that fix when you're that hooked on the substance like this.

So I, I decided I would smoke it while I was driving, which sounds wild and it is, but something I had done hundreds of times, um, But I was like more in a frantic rush to get to work. So I'm like driving with my knee, pen in my mouth, lighter under the tinfoil and like speeding and kind of brain damaged, you know, which I didn't even know.

So I, I decided I would smoke it while I was driving, which sounds wild and it is, but something I had done hundreds of times, um, But I was like more in a frantic rush to get to work. So I'm like driving with my knee, pen in my mouth, lighter under the tinfoil and like speeding and kind of brain damaged, you know, which I didn't even know.

And I just kept swerving and I'm like, God, what is wrong with you? I kept saying that. And then I looked in my rear view and I noticed there were blue lights.

And I just kept swerving and I'm like, God, what is wrong with you? I kept saying that. And then I looked in my rear view and I noticed there were blue lights.

As I opened the center console, I'm trying to put the stuff into it. It was like my brain froze and the connection that my brain was telling to move the arm and the hand to put it away. It wasn't working. So I'm, like, kind of frozen with all this drugs and paraphernalia in my hand as a cop is walking to the window. He didn't even say, like, do you know why I pulled you over?

As I opened the center console, I'm trying to put the stuff into it. It was like my brain froze and the connection that my brain was telling to move the arm and the hand to put it away. It wasn't working. So I'm, like, kind of frozen with all this drugs and paraphernalia in my hand as a cop is walking to the window. He didn't even say, like, do you know why I pulled you over?

He was just like, man, you're driving like a... Like a psycho, what's going on? And then like stops and he's like, what's that in your hand? And I'm just kind of like, uh, uh, uh, uh, like I couldn't even formulate sounds. And then my brain did something else weird. He didn't even ask me for my license, but I was fixated on getting him my license and And I'm like, oh, just, like, hold on.

He was just like, man, you're driving like a... Like a psycho, what's going on? And then like stops and he's like, what's that in your hand? And I'm just kind of like, uh, uh, uh, uh, like I couldn't even formulate sounds. And then my brain did something else weird. He didn't even ask me for my license, but I was fixated on getting him my license and And I'm like, oh, just, like, hold on.