Jake Haendel

There was a side of me that was like, well, I know there's no chance, but maybe, maybe if I get my shit together and do everything I can do, I could beat this. And I asked them, is there any medicine for this? And they're like, no. And I'm like, is there anything I can be doing?

There was a side of me that was like, well, I know there's no chance, but maybe, maybe if I get my shit together and do everything I can do, I could beat this. And I asked them, is there any medicine for this? And they're like, no. And I'm like, is there anything I can be doing?

And they were also like, and eat blueberries as much as you can. Do you like them? And I was like, oh, I fucking love blueberries.

And they were also like, and eat blueberries as much as you can. Do you like them? And I was like, oh, I fucking love blueberries.

Easy. That's medicine.

Easy. That's medicine.

And I would eat pints. You know, I just had that mindset of like, I'm going to try and prolong my life and or maybe beat this.

And I would eat pints. You know, I just had that mindset of like, I'm going to try and prolong my life and or maybe beat this.

I'm losing the ability to text by now already. And hold the phone to my ear, so get a call from her. And I answer it. And she's like crying. She's like, I miss you. And I'm like, I miss you too. And she's like, can I come home? And I'm like, I'm like, well, there isn't much of a home to come home to. This is kind of it. She was like, I fucking hate it out here.

I'm losing the ability to text by now already. And hold the phone to my ear, so get a call from her. And I answer it. And she's like crying. She's like, I miss you. And I'm like, I miss you too. And she's like, can I come home? And I'm like, I'm like, well, there isn't much of a home to come home to. This is kind of it. She was like, I fucking hate it out here.

There's too many drugs and I'm doing too many drugs and I'm miserable. And I just, I just want to come home. Am I allowed to come home? I like wanted her still. But I also like knew this would be horrible for her. So I was torn. I miss you terribly and I'm sad. And like, but this is not good. And she was like, you know, I told her, I was like, this is not really good for you.

There's too many drugs and I'm doing too many drugs and I'm miserable. And I just, I just want to come home. Am I allowed to come home? I like wanted her still. But I also like knew this would be horrible for her. So I was torn. I miss you terribly and I'm sad. And like, but this is not good. And she was like, you know, I told her, I was like, this is not really good for you.

And she was like, I don't care. I want to like take care of you. And I was really torn. I was like, like I knew it would be a good thing for me. So like, I was like kind of like screaming in my head, just say yes. But I knew how hard it'd be for her. And she came back and she was like totally different, positive. She got so into trying to figure out the best way

And she was like, I don't care. I want to like take care of you. And I was really torn. I was like, like I knew it would be a good thing for me. So like, I was like kind of like screaming in my head, just say yes. But I knew how hard it'd be for her. And she came back and she was like totally different, positive. She got so into trying to figure out the best way

things for me, like strategies with ways to take care of me and experimental treatments and like she was just all in.

things for me, like strategies with ways to take care of me and experimental treatments and like she was just all in.

And advocate. She really was the best at this for a while. I may have been blinded by the love I had for her and I'm just realizing there was A lot I overlooked. Perhaps sinister stuff.

And advocate. She really was the best at this for a while. I may have been blinded by the love I had for her and I'm just realizing there was A lot I overlooked. Perhaps sinister stuff.