Jake

And I could just feel my head getting turned inside out.

It's going to be like welcoming an old friend.

So I left the shooting line a couple of times and I would take my helmet off and I would shake my head.

So...

my last intention that I had not accomplished in Ibogaine was that I wanted to die.

And it was almost like I was shaking my brain back into place.

I went through a whole bottle of Excedrin in one week.

I wanted to experience death.

And I threw up a couple of times after coming off the line as well.

And so I, I headed down to the Bufo room, walked in and all the providers, like, I mean, this is like as spiritual as it gets.

And that's really, you know, that's really when it set in that, because I would leave from shooting before and be like, oh, I've got a headache or, oh, I feel dizzy or, you know, something like that.

So the court in there, the shaman is in there and she blesses you again.

But that was the first time where I came off the line and I was like, holy shit, like this is, I'm not supposed to feel like this.

She does her prayer and,

everybody's wearing like linen and cotton and clothes that are you know very from the earth and they didn't tell us to bring those but i was uh i was staying in san diego the week after the journey and so i had brought like a linen shirt and some stuff to go out in so i i actually had some clothes like that so i did the same thing after seeing you know the way they were dressed

I can't speak for everybody, but I know that I got out, got ready for college, thought that, you know, I was going to live this great life.

And then all of a sudden I had a headache every day.

I had a migraine every week.

I had blurry vision.

And again, I'm just I'm just one small example.