Jake

And when she hits zero, you kind of blast off.

And literally like any sensory that came in was, was excruciating.

That's the best way to explain it.

Or that's how everybody else explains it.

And, um, the best way I can explain it is it's, it's a heartbeat in your head, but every time your heart beats, it hurts.

But the word I actually used was dissolve.

It kind of feels like your physical body dissolves.

So you get like a, you get a second of relief and then you get a second of this excruciating pain and then that kind of just beats until you can get rid of it.

Either way, it's a similar feeling.

So for me, the handshake dose comes on and my physical body is still present.

That was when I knew something was wrong initially.

Looking back, that's when it started.

All the other symptoms started setting in probably in college.

But I'm completely wrapped in the universe.

So I've always had ADHD, but it set in to where my ADHD by itself became a legitimate disability.

And the universe is like atomized.

There's nothing around me.

I'm not laying on a mattress.

I couldn't focus on anything.

I'm just kind of like floating in the universe.