Jake

I would have to leave class early.

And I'm completely wrapped in whatever the basis of the universe is.

I actually at one point started failing my classes because there was just no way that I could handle the workload that I was getting.

And that's where...

I've, I've struggled in my life trying to figure out like what the nature of humans is.

conjunction with the other things that were going on which uh i started getting double vision like my vision became blurry my mental health started taking a turn uh depression anxiety came on and then later down the line uh i developed an actual twitch because of it so i developed a physical twitch where i would i would shake my head multiple times a minute

I want, I've always wanted to believe we're good, but I've just, I've seen so much bad and the world these days and everything like that.

And it's, it's gotten to me and it's been hard to, you know, keep that opinion.

But when I was wrapped in the universe and God, and they showed me what they are, it was pure unconditional love.

which started taking its toll on my neck.

I wasn't able to properly meet with people.

Like the basis of existence, the foundation of,

I ended up getting a great job after college that I love, but you can't really do a professional meeting while you're sitting there tweaking the whole time.

of consciousness is pure, unconditional love.

And I wrote in big, giant letters in my notebook that you can't read about God, you cannot hear about God, and some guy on a podium cannot tell you about God.

So yeah, I mean, these things just started setting in.

Whatever you can think of going on in the head started going on.

They diagnosed me with more than I can count on my papers at the VA and the brain clinics that I went to.

The only way you can know God is by feeling it.

And that's what I experienced that day.