Jake

It kind of feels like your physical body dissolves.

So you get like a, you get a second of relief and then you get a second of this excruciating pain and then that kind of just beats until you can get rid of it.

Either way, it's a similar feeling.

So for me, the handshake dose comes on and my physical body is still present.

That was when I knew something was wrong initially.

Looking back, that's when it started.

All the other symptoms started setting in probably in college.

But I'm completely wrapped in the universe.

So I've always had ADHD, but it set in to where my ADHD by itself became a legitimate disability.

And the universe is like atomized.

There's nothing around me.

I'm not laying on a mattress.

I couldn't focus on anything.

I'm just kind of like floating in the universe.

I would have to leave class early.

And I'm completely wrapped in whatever the basis of the universe is.

I actually at one point started failing my classes because there was just no way that I could handle the workload that I was getting.

And that's where...

I've, I've struggled in my life trying to figure out like what the nature of humans is.

conjunction with the other things that were going on which uh i started getting double vision like my vision became blurry my mental health started taking a turn uh depression anxiety came on and then later down the line uh i developed an actual twitch because of it so i developed a physical twitch where i would i would shake my head multiple times a minute