Jake

I want, I've always wanted to believe we're good, but I've just, I've seen so much bad and the world these days and everything like that.

And it's, it's gotten to me and it's been hard to, you know, keep that opinion.

But when I was wrapped in the universe and God, and they showed me what they are, it was pure unconditional love.

which started taking its toll on my neck.

I wasn't able to properly meet with people.

Like the basis of existence, the foundation of,

I ended up getting a great job after college that I love, but you can't really do a professional meeting while you're sitting there tweaking the whole time.

of consciousness is pure, unconditional love.

And I wrote in big, giant letters in my notebook that you can't read about God, you cannot hear about God, and some guy on a podium cannot tell you about God.

So yeah, I mean, these things just started setting in.

Whatever you can think of going on in the head started going on.

They diagnosed me with more than I can count on my papers at the VA and the brain clinics that I went to.

The only way you can know God is by feeling it.

And that's what I experienced that day.

But at the end of the day, it's all just a TBI to me.

Because I grew up going to church, I've explored other religions, and I never got within a mile of anything like this.

It's all under one umbrella.

So they said that I had, you know, from normal concussions and stuff like that, people who play football, people who box, and then people who do our job, when you get concussions and you get knocked out, you're naturally going to have some issues.

And so I'm sitting there wrapped in it.

And then all of a sudden this fight breaks out in front of me and I never felt in danger or anything, but I could just see my mind, how it was behaving.