Jake

I've always loved and respected the hell out of my grandma, my mom, my sister, my wife later in life, obviously.

So I'm not sure why it chose to show me this, but I'm eternally grateful it did.

And it's kind of why I got pushed towards this is because that wasn't a lasting relief.

I love my place in the world.

I love being a man, a protector.

But for the first time in years, I had a couple of days where I didn't have a headache.

I like that.

I enjoy it.

But I can never experience what femininity or being a woman is because of that.

I could sleep and I felt okay.

But I mean, on top of everything else, I already kind of mentioned it, but I went to a three-week outpatient clinic at a brain institute with the most amazing doctors in the world, the most amazing people that I'm extremely grateful for.

And the universe pulled me back in, and it showed me that.

It showed me what the pure essence of bringing life into the world is.

It showed me the power to uplift others.

But I only got worse.

And...

Again, I can never tell you why it showed me that, but I'm really, really happy it did.

Western medicine just wasn't answering the questions.

So I was in therapy in Colorado where a lot of the psychedelic-assisted stuff is legal.

And that's when it got super weird to me that I instinctively knew to call the DMT a she in my Ibogaine journey, because obviously I had no idea this was going to happen.