Jake

My mental health is exponentially better.

I think this is when it started, but I just didn't know it yet.

Like I have days where I'm down now, but instead of it being this like horrible pit of despair that I can't dig out of, it's now I'm sad.

I'm in complete blackness and I'm just standing there.

And all of a sudden, all the bad voices that I had kind of already started to beat.

So like I said, I really got into meditation and trying new things and getting back in touch with my spirituality about three months out from the retreat.

Like, you know, this sucks, but...

It happens.

So let's, you know, let's do this.

Let's sit on the couch and watch a movie and let's be sad.

I mean, I think that's the gist of it coming back.

And I had really started making some progress and had shut a lot of these bad things off.

I can't, again, I wish I could speak more to it, but I can't because I'm only three months out, right?

You know, the depression, the anxiety, the voices and the arguments that you get in your head.

Like I'm just hitting the moment now where the medicine is technically supposed to be out of my body.

But I can tell you that it saved my life.

I'm standing there in blackness and all of a sudden they all come back and they're louder than ever.

And I'm in a...

They're just booming.

a place that I could not imagine being in three months ago.