Jake

You're going out to the bars all the time, you're shooting big guns, you made it through something tough, and you're literally 21 years old.

You think you're hot shit, and you're not, but it gets in your head and it makes you become a bad person if you let it.

And I certainly let that happen for a few years, and it weighed on me a lot.

And so I asked, you know, can I ever get around that?

Can I ever forgive myself?

And he told me, you've already answered that as well.

And I started getting a little irritated because I'm like, okay, I really don't want this whole thing to be cryptic.

And that's when he drew a door in the fog and he walked through it.

And so I, again, everything's intuition.

Like when I say he says things, he's not saying them.

I just hear them in my mind.

So yeah.

I walk up, or I follow him, and I walk through the door, and I'm back in the tribunal.

And I'm standing behind the bench this time, and I see that all the shadow figures are me, and I had deemed myself worthy when I first got there.

And that answered the first two questions that I had asked, and was a pretty profound moment for me.

And it was...

It was kind of strange.

As I got answers to these, I could almost feel like energy entering my body or chakras being unblocked or whatever you want to call it.

But in that moment when I realized I had already deemed myself worthy, I felt just this rush of energy that was, I mean, it was healing is what it was.

And so next I asked him, so this was one, so they say that some people can talk to their ancestors, their dead relatives, stuff like that.