Jake

And then he shows me two children that, you know, only time is going to tell, but I'm pretty positive they were my kids.

I hope people can get the help they need and I hope they can get better because that place sucks.

And like the place that you go to when you're going through that really, really sucks.

Because I have no possible way of knowing what a father's love feels like.

And this world is beautiful and there's a life to live.

And I hope people get to do that.

And I am completely certain that these were my kids.

I mean, I just like basked in their glory for a few minutes.

I just stood there and stared at them and smiled.

So it was one boy and one girl, and I'm not positive, but I think the girl was a little bit older.

Besides that, the vision has gotten kind of blurry.

It was shown to me in like a purple haze almost.

That was the other thing within this whole journey.

Purple was a very common color that kept coming up with a lot of this stuff.

Yeah, so he showed me that in a haze, and...

i believe i saw my kids and i'm really excited to figure out if that's correct because that obviously by you know by the time i'm older that will be something that i can verify or not so that happens and it's amazing and wonderful and then i ask him um can i ever reconcile with my past and and be okay you know with the things i've done i um

The Special Operations community is wonderful, and I owe it everything.

But if you allow yourself to, you can let it become very, very toxic.

You can let it turn you into that toxic masculine thing that is just awful to everybody around you.

And I let it do that to me for a couple years.