Jake

So the next place I see is this big field with the softest green grass I've ever seen.

And in the center of it, there's a pool of water about six inches deep with purple flowers all around it.

And I'm laying in it face up with my eyes closed.

And before I explain this next part, I have to explain one of my intentions.

So I had read a lot of books going in, and one of the most profound ones was The King, Warrior, Magician, Lover.

And the book is essentially about how

In today's world, our men don't access man psychology where you are strong and decisive and protective, but you're also loving and caring and sensitive and you can uplift those around you.

All we do in this society is build up on boy psychology.

So the worst parts of us, the most toxic parts of our men, we just build on that psychology.

The book goes on to talk about how ancient civilizations had these rites of passage where a boy would

theoretically die, like hypothetically, sorry, hypothetically die, but quite literally in their sense.

So the boy would die, whether the, you know, the ritual was psychedelics, something with the tribe, war, whatever it may be, and the man would be born.

And at that point, the boy could access man psychology and the man, you know, was born and came to exist.

And the book even went on to talk about, it went on to specifically cite the military and be like, you know,

The military is one of the worst abusers of this.

They're not necessarily making men.

They're building on the parts of boy psychology that are best to harness for war.

And so a big intention of mine was that I wanted this to be my rite of passage.

I wanted the boy to die and I wanted the man to be born.

And so I see myself laying in this pool of water face up, but I don't have any connection to this body.