Jake
👤 SpeakerAppearances Over Time
Podcast Appearances
And I would look at them from the north point of view.
And I'm standing on this balcony where I'm now looking at them from the south.
And it was so poetic to me that this seems to be ending where it began.
For the first time in my life, I didn't have ADHD.
That's the only way I can describe this feeling.
For the first time in my entire life, I was able to focus on something.
I wasn't silently counting my fingers.
I wasn't clicking my teeth an equal number of times.
I wasn't planning something in a couple of days.
My mind was just there.
And it was beautiful.
And I'm standing there.
And then all of a sudden, I get this immense sadness.
But I was supposed to get that.
The sadness comes over me and...
I think I was mourning my past self as well as my grandpa.
But the thing was for the first time in years, it wasn't depression.
It wasn't despair.
It was just sadness, which was, it was really beautiful for me.