Jake

So teaching some younger guys how to operate the guns at a high level.

And I wanted to go help teach it because I was getting out.

I didn't have to go on that trip and I chose to as a trainer.

And I went up and I spent the whole week between training

But if you can have an experience on Earth where you feel God and you experience the other side and the universe, then when you die, it's not going to be this scary, horrible thing.

and a 50 caliber machine gun training guys.

And I could just feel my head getting turned inside out.

It's going to be like welcoming an old friend.

So I left the shooting line a couple of times and I would take my helmet off and I would shake my head.

So...

my last intention that I had not accomplished in Ibogaine was that I wanted to die.

And it was almost like I was shaking my brain back into place.

I went through a whole bottle of Excedrin in one week.

I wanted to experience death.

And I threw up a couple of times after coming off the line as well.

And so I, I headed down to the Bufo room, walked in and all the providers, like, I mean, this is like as spiritual as it gets.

And that's really, you know, that's really when it set in that, because I would leave from shooting before and be like, oh, I've got a headache or, oh, I feel dizzy or, you know, something like that.

So the court in there, the shaman is in there and she blesses you again.

But that was the first time where I came off the line and I was like, holy shit, like this is, I'm not supposed to feel like this.

She does her prayer and,