Jameela Jamil

I despair of their obedience and their compliance.

That's all I can see everywhere.

What I used to see is as an aspiration.

I now see as obedience and compliance.

And that makes me really sad because there's this whole life to live that we're missing out on.

And I can say from experience how all consuming diet culture is, how all consuming picking yourself apart, looking in the mirror for things to fix is.

It made me a boring person.

It made me an exhausted person.

I was too tired to have sex.

I was too tired to socialize.

I would avoid socializing in case I might eat too much at that delicious restaurant that I fucking wish I'd eaten at.

It's very navel-gazing, it's very self-obsessive.

And I don't think it lends itself to you being particularly fascinating or compelling.

Not to say that I am now, but I'd say that I'm a more stimulating person than I was then.

And so when I look around at all of this, it's a fucking full-time job trying to beat time and gravity.

And I just can't be arsed.

So for me, I did something called EMDR therapy, which is eye movement desensitization reprocessing therapy.

And that reshaped my attitude towards food and took food away from being rebellion or self-punishment or love or, you know, all the different things that you start to sublimate.

know regarding food and then uh so learning to see it as fuel and nourishment and pleasure and something good um learning to see my body as my best friend and understanding that this is my ride or die i had a one month house party when i was 23 and i'm still alive

It's because of this body.