James Sexton

Like, and you won't know until you've crossed over it, until you've passed it, that that was it, that was the last time.

Like, and that to me, like if you don't keep that in your line of sight, you're a fool.

You're a fool because you're gonna think you get to do that forever.

You're gonna think you get to do that all the time and you don't, you will not do that forever.

Like there is a finite number of times and that's the most beautiful thing in the world.

It's what makes that so special is that it's finite.

Like if it lasted forever, like to live forever would be a curse.

Like being Dracula is a curse, you know, but the truth is like she's alive right now.

Right now, she's alive.

She's in the other room.

She's right there.

And you get to kiss her as many times as you want to.

And isn't that the greatest thing in the world?

Like, isn't that the most, you know, Thich Nhat Hanh has this exercise that he says, when you hug someone, you should think about the fact that they're there and you're hugging them.

And then you should close your eyes and think that they're dead.

And you're hugging their dead body before you let it go for the last time

And then you should think about the fact that they're alive and you're hugging them.

If you do that, I'm telling you, your whole way of viewing the world will change.

And so hospice, for me, being a hospice volunteer, was a undeniable glimpse into that reality and nothing has ever looked the same since, like nothing.

And by the way, it didn't change into like, oh, now I have to renunciate everything and become a monk, no.