Jamie Mustard

And what I'm thinking is I'm desperate.

Desperation.

I think because I had grown up in this weird bubble.

Maybe I was brave in the sense that I was always terrified and numb.

I've had all these physical things happen to me that we haven't gotten to.

But I was the kind of person that I would just throw myself into something even if I thought I was going to fail.

Like I almost had a nervous breakdown applying to higher education.

And when you grow up in LA in a sci-fi cult and you're around gang members, I'm dealing with gang members.

I'm dealing with drug addicts.

I'm dealing with the Armenian kids.

There's all this kind of inner city stuff that I'm dealing with.

My brother was involved with gangs when I was 10 or 11.

And this gang from South Central, this kid he was involved with, threatens to shoot up where we're staying.

We're staying with my stepfather in a tenement house across from the big blue building.

And we had to spend two weeks sleeping on the floor of my mother's counseling room.

inside Scientology because this gang member was a credible threat against our lives.

So when you grow up around that, and then you're also dealing with all the top celebrities in Scientology in Central Florida, and you're sent to Copenhagen, and you're living for a year in Southern England.

But my first day in Southern England, I meet Woody Widmansey, David Bowie's drummer from Spiders from Mars.

So I had this kind of feeling of just being comfortable with every kind of person because I'd just been around every kind of person.

And I think that I had a sense of just carefreeness about people.