Jane

I would say it's like very subtle and internal.

The way I externalize it is just being like very serious or very, I don't know, focused on something or very intense.

Like I feel like I'm very intense a lot of the time.

Yeah.

I think the way that I'm experiencing right now is, is maybe more, it feels very oriented towards myself, but maybe that's just in the way that like, it's like about what I'm doing and how it's affecting the baby.

And there's a lot of shoulds flying around.

Like I should be doing this like this or not like this, but I don't know that I feel the weight of

all children everywhere.

It's so interesting because it all feels so familiar to me.

And so it doesn't feel like there's more water in the glass.

It just feels like I feel like a lot of the emotions I'm having around, am I doing this right?

Or how do I do this right?

I can map onto other parts of my life.

And so I sort of end up feeling like, well, this is just what I'm like all the time.

But now I'm really focused on how it's coming to fruition through pregnancy.

Right.

I'm laughing because it's just the thought I have every day.

I'm like, I feel so crazy.

How is it that so many people have gone through this for millennia and it's just normal.

It's so not normal.