Jason McKenzie

I mean, it's still when the cops, she was a police officer too, but the cops showed up though. you know, it's a freaking huge shock, obviously. But in a way, it was almost like a relief in some ways because, number one, her pain was over. Her pain was so inconsolable. Like, it was just mental anguish. But also, it was kind of like a relief for me.

I mean, it's still when the cops, she was a police officer too, but the cops showed up though. you know, it's a freaking huge shock, obviously. But in a way, it was almost like a relief in some ways because, number one, her pain was over. Her pain was so inconsolable. Like, it was just mental anguish. But also, it was kind of like a relief for me.

It seemed like a relief at the time because I'm like, oh my God, this is what I thought at the time. I could have a normal life again. Like, this is, I'd learned a lot since then. And then, you know, from Madara, the pain is way worse. It's just so visceral because she's like of me.

It seemed like a relief at the time because I'm like, oh my God, this is what I thought at the time. I could have a normal life again. Like, this is, I'd learned a lot since then. And then, you know, from Madara, the pain is way worse. It's just so visceral because she's like of me.

It seemed like a relief at the time because I'm like, oh my God, this is what I thought at the time. I could have a normal life again. Like, this is, I'd learned a lot since then. And then, you know, from Madara, the pain is way worse. It's just so visceral because she's like of me.

I let my daughter, I mean, so I try to be very in an age appropriate way without placing undue burden on my daughter. You know, I'm very open and communicative with intention, I would say, about like my grieving experience and putting words to it and stuff. And, you know, and I invite her to talk about it. We have a wonderful relationship, but it's very hard for her too.

I let my daughter, I mean, so I try to be very in an age appropriate way without placing undue burden on my daughter. You know, I'm very open and communicative with intention, I would say, about like my grieving experience and putting words to it and stuff. And, you know, and I invite her to talk about it. We have a wonderful relationship, but it's very hard for her too.

I let my daughter, I mean, so I try to be very in an age appropriate way without placing undue burden on my daughter. You know, I'm very open and communicative with intention, I would say, about like my grieving experience and putting words to it and stuff. And, you know, and I invite her to talk about it. We have a wonderful relationship, but it's very hard for her too.

She's afraid that if she opens the vault, everything's going to just blow up. You know, and that's a real fear of a lot of people who have dealt with trauma or grieving is like, if I give into this like wave of really intense emotions, I'm falling into a pit and I'm never getting out.

She's afraid that if she opens the vault, everything's going to just blow up. You know, and that's a real fear of a lot of people who have dealt with trauma or grieving is like, if I give into this like wave of really intense emotions, I'm falling into a pit and I'm never getting out.

She's afraid that if she opens the vault, everything's going to just blow up. You know, and that's a real fear of a lot of people who have dealt with trauma or grieving is like, if I give into this like wave of really intense emotions, I'm falling into a pit and I'm never getting out.

And it always, the thing is it always passes, right? Like, so you don't fall into a pit and never come out, but it feels like you are going to. And when you're barely hanging on, like for me, like, and just to raise an example, like me, I'm the breadwinner in the family. And so I can't fall apart, man. Like, you know, I got to keep moving forward somehow, even when I don't care about any of it.

And it always, the thing is it always passes, right? Like, so you don't fall into a pit and never come out, but it feels like you are going to. And when you're barely hanging on, like for me, like, and just to raise an example, like me, I'm the breadwinner in the family. And so I can't fall apart, man. Like, you know, I got to keep moving forward somehow, even when I don't care about any of it.

And it always, the thing is it always passes, right? Like, so you don't fall into a pit and never come out, but it feels like you are going to. And when you're barely hanging on, like for me, like, and just to raise an example, like me, I'm the breadwinner in the family. And so I can't fall apart, man. Like, you know, I got to keep moving forward somehow, even when I don't care about any of it.

And, you know, like, and I can barely function. Everybody's experience is super unique. But my point is, is that, you know, you have to face it or else you'll never, ever move through it.

And, you know, like, and I can barely function. Everybody's experience is super unique. But my point is, is that, you know, you have to face it or else you'll never, ever move through it.

And, you know, like, and I can barely function. Everybody's experience is super unique. But my point is, is that, you know, you have to face it or else you'll never, ever move through it.

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