Jason McKenzie

played up in her life, man, is just like this, again, emotionally different responses to trauma, you know, of her feeling like, you know, I'm not good enough or worthy because I was not worthy, like I was not good enough for my mom to stick around and keep fighting for. And now for my other daughter, who's still with us, I mean, I've had to tell her their mother is dead and their sister is dead.

she is doing the work for sure but she's just about to turn 20 like she can't even like wrap her head around for her the trauma plays out in her life in a lot of ways but she's not ready to address it yet so she's doing great she's going to school but she's always in like fight or flight she's got like she's got some like anxiety and it's obviously related to the horrible trauma she's experienced twice and we talk about that regularly but right now she's I'm not opening that can of worms right now I can't do it you know and

she is doing the work for sure but she's just about to turn 20 like she can't even like wrap her head around for her the trauma plays out in her life in a lot of ways but she's not ready to address it yet so she's doing great she's going to school but she's always in like fight or flight she's got like she's got some like anxiety and it's obviously related to the horrible trauma she's experienced twice and we talk about that regularly but right now she's I'm not opening that can of worms right now I can't do it you know and

she is doing the work for sure but she's just about to turn 20 like she can't even like wrap her head around for her the trauma plays out in her life in a lot of ways but she's not ready to address it yet so she's doing great she's going to school but she's always in like fight or flight she's got like she's got some like anxiety and it's obviously related to the horrible trauma she's experienced twice and we talk about that regularly but right now she's I'm not opening that can of worms right now I can't do it you know and

I mean, it's her journey, man. You know, like, she knows we're here.

I mean, it's her journey, man. You know, like, she knows we're here.

I mean, it's her journey, man. You know, like, she knows we're here.

So my daughter who passed away was the older one, so she was six, and my younger daughter just turned five.

So my daughter who passed away was the older one, so she was six, and my younger daughter just turned five.

So my daughter who passed away was the older one, so she was six, and my younger daughter just turned five.

She's 19, actually. She's going to turn 20 next month.

She's 19, actually. She's going to turn 20 next month.

She's 19, actually. She's going to turn 20 next month.

Yeah, I mean... just with communication and love and compassion. And I mean, like the thing is such a vastly different experience for both of us, right? Like she doesn't even remember her biological mom. The trauma still lives within her, like the loss, but she doesn't actually have any real memories of her mom, which is like traumatic in and of itself.

Yeah, I mean... just with communication and love and compassion. And I mean, like the thing is such a vastly different experience for both of us, right? Like she doesn't even remember her biological mom. The trauma still lives within her, like the loss, but she doesn't actually have any real memories of her mom, which is like traumatic in and of itself.

Yeah, I mean... just with communication and love and compassion. And I mean, like the thing is such a vastly different experience for both of us, right? Like she doesn't even remember her biological mom. The trauma still lives within her, like the loss, but she doesn't actually have any real memories of her mom, which is like traumatic in and of itself.

And then with her sister, I think for both of us, like losing my wife was brutal, but it does not even compare, honestly, to losing my daughter. You know, my wife's mental health issues were so bad that for so long that I had sort of like, I don't know, like I had mentally prepared myself as much as one can that it might end this way in suicide. Like it was so bad.

And then with her sister, I think for both of us, like losing my wife was brutal, but it does not even compare, honestly, to losing my daughter. You know, my wife's mental health issues were so bad that for so long that I had sort of like, I don't know, like I had mentally prepared myself as much as one can that it might end this way in suicide. Like it was so bad.

And then with her sister, I think for both of us, like losing my wife was brutal, but it does not even compare, honestly, to losing my daughter. You know, my wife's mental health issues were so bad that for so long that I had sort of like, I don't know, like I had mentally prepared myself as much as one can that it might end this way in suicide. Like it was so bad.

I mean, it's still when the cops, she was a police officer too, but the cops showed up though. you know, it's a freaking huge shock, obviously. But in a way, it was almost like a relief in some ways because, number one, her pain was over. Her pain was so inconsolable. Like, it was just mental anguish. But also, it was kind of like a relief for me.