Jason McKenzie

My wife took my other daughter out of town, didn't do any of the things I promised her. And she said afterwards, you know, I'm sitting there drunk on the couch and she said afterwards, I'm disappointed in you. It doesn't happen to great parents, right? Like, Like your nine-year-old doesn't tell your drunk ass that they're disappointed in you if you're a great parent. Like that's not how it works.

My wife took my other daughter out of town, didn't do any of the things I promised her. And she said afterwards, you know, I'm sitting there drunk on the couch and she said afterwards, I'm disappointed in you. It doesn't happen to great parents, right? Like, Like your nine-year-old doesn't tell your drunk ass that they're disappointed in you if you're a great parent. Like that's not how it works.

My wife took my other daughter out of town, didn't do any of the things I promised her. And she said afterwards, you know, I'm sitting there drunk on the couch and she said afterwards, I'm disappointed in you. It doesn't happen to great parents, right? Like, Like your nine-year-old doesn't tell your drunk ass that they're disappointed in you if you're a great parent. Like that's not how it works.

And so for whatever reason, that just shattered the, I just had this like moment of clarity for some reason. And I've never wanted to have a drink since. So thank God. Now, the grief manifested in other ways and stuff, but we don't need to go down that little rabbit hole. But yeah, so creating that space, just, man, it allowed me to grieve.

And so for whatever reason, that just shattered the, I just had this like moment of clarity for some reason. And I've never wanted to have a drink since. So thank God. Now, the grief manifested in other ways and stuff, but we don't need to go down that little rabbit hole. But yeah, so creating that space, just, man, it allowed me to grieve.

And so for whatever reason, that just shattered the, I just had this like moment of clarity for some reason. And I've never wanted to have a drink since. So thank God. Now, the grief manifested in other ways and stuff, but we don't need to go down that little rabbit hole. But yeah, so creating that space, just, man, it allowed me to grieve.

It allowed me to start exploring, like listening to some podcasts, exploring personal development. And I don't know, just went down this. And really, that whole experience just altered the trajectory of my life in a pretty significant way.

It allowed me to start exploring, like listening to some podcasts, exploring personal development. And I don't know, just went down this. And really, that whole experience just altered the trajectory of my life in a pretty significant way.

It allowed me to start exploring, like listening to some podcasts, exploring personal development. And I don't know, just went down this. And really, that whole experience just altered the trajectory of my life in a pretty significant way.

Yeah, that's a great question. So for me, I think this is something I talk about a lot. When my wife killed herself, my kids were six and five, six and just turned five. And I actually thought if she had to die, it's better that it happened when they were young. You know, it's the least worst option is that it happened when they're young.

Yeah, that's a great question. So for me, I think this is something I talk about a lot. When my wife killed herself, my kids were six and five, six and just turned five. And I actually thought if she had to die, it's better that it happened when they were young. You know, it's the least worst option is that it happened when they're young.

Yeah, that's a great question. So for me, I think this is something I talk about a lot. When my wife killed herself, my kids were six and five, six and just turned five. And I actually thought if she had to die, it's better that it happened when they were young. You know, it's the least worst option is that it happened when they're young.

Cause dude, I had no idea about the devastating impact of childhood trauma at that age. Like I just, I thought I can love them to heal it. Honestly, it was what I thought. It turns out, of course I found out, I don't know. It was basically the worst time. Like it could happen because that's the age where you're forming all your ideas of like safe attachment and like all this kind of stuff. Right.

Cause dude, I had no idea about the devastating impact of childhood trauma at that age. Like I just, I thought I can love them to heal it. Honestly, it was what I thought. It turns out, of course I found out, I don't know. It was basically the worst time. Like it could happen because that's the age where you're forming all your ideas of like safe attachment and like all this kind of stuff. Right.

Cause dude, I had no idea about the devastating impact of childhood trauma at that age. Like I just, I thought I can love them to heal it. Honestly, it was what I thought. It turns out, of course I found out, I don't know. It was basically the worst time. Like it could happen because that's the age where you're forming all your ideas of like safe attachment and like all this kind of stuff. Right.

And so, you know, so I did not appreciate the impact that it had on them. And I don't think they did either. And then with my daughter, that's what happened.

And so, you know, so I did not appreciate the impact that it had on them. And I don't think they did either. And then with my daughter, that's what happened.

And so, you know, so I did not appreciate the impact that it had on them. And I don't think they did either. And then with my daughter, that's what happened.

played up in her life, man, is just like this, again, emotionally different responses to trauma, you know, of her feeling like, you know, I'm not good enough or worthy because I was not worthy, like I was not good enough for my mom to stick around and keep fighting for. And now for my other daughter, who's still with us, I mean, I've had to tell her their mother is dead and their sister is dead.

played up in her life, man, is just like this, again, emotionally different responses to trauma, you know, of her feeling like, you know, I'm not good enough or worthy because I was not worthy, like I was not good enough for my mom to stick around and keep fighting for. And now for my other daughter, who's still with us, I mean, I've had to tell her their mother is dead and their sister is dead.