Jay Shetty

It was tough because...

there were certain members of my family that felt that I was giving up my responsibility.

Correct.

And so, so that was the, I remember that being the tension where I was like, I love my parents.

I'm grateful for everything they've given me.

I'm really valuable.

And I wouldn't be who I am today if I didn't have this situation that I grew up in.

Um, but I think now's the time that I've spent however many, obviously I didn't start meeting when I was four years old, but

I've spent whatever, 10 years of my life trying to figure this out and I'm not capable.

So there's a part of me that felt like a failure.

There's part of me that felt like, you know, like that I was right and I was free to give up the media and the peace part that you're talking about.

But I think that's what's so interesting is that I gave up that responsibility at 21, even though I saw the decision at 10.

But did you ever get answers to your whys and your questions or was that something that you kind of found on your own?

yeah it's i feel like as the older you get you realize you've got to answer the questions yourself and find you've got to kind of find the full stop by yourself kind of like the point that you're making this lyric of just i've decided i'm not taking on this responsibility in whatever in whatever way you played it do you feel sometimes do you feel free of it or is it is it always like something that no once you played that role you're always kind of conditioned to play that role

It's almost like that conditioning pulls you back and then you've got to find this new thought process, almost like learning new lines as an actor and going, well, this is the new life that I want to build.

And even what you just said about how you knew that when you went through it, you didn't want to mirror some of those behaviors.

And you're like, no, we're going to do holidays together and we're going to change things because that is tearing away that muscle memory and going, I'm going to change it.

Yeah.

Yeah.

There's another amazing lyric that I love that I took apart here.