Jay

Uh, she's not, I don't know how to explain it.

Well, we have spoken about this, and she is trying to work with me.

She wants to go.

She's been going to the gym.

I just don't want to nitpick.

I'm having that issue.

She said, I went and got me a coffee.

I deserved it.

And my mom would immediately come to my mind, well, what did you do to deserve it?

But then again, I remember she's at home taking care of things that she's not obligated to take care of, things that I happened to mess up at home, and she was taking care of it.

So yeah, maybe she did deserve it.

But it's just so conflicting.

It's so weird.

And I don't know how to wrap my mind around about it.

How... I think it's...

lack of discipline is what is bothering me because that's the way I grew up.

That's, she grew up very differently.

She grew up in a very loosey goosey house and I grew up in a very strict and, um, honest and truthful household.

And I think a part of it is just being that discipline of saying, Hey, I don't need to eat like this.

I don't need to drink like this.