Jean

I would even comment to her and say, you know, I don't recognize you.

I need a roadmap.

It's like I need a roadmap to figure out, you know, what's within bounds and what's out of bounds.

I don't feel like I can be myself.

with you the way I used to be because I don't want to offend you or I don't want to make you feel badly because things have changed a lot.

I used to love feeling her body, her big body, next to me in bed.

the softness of her body, you know, the extra tummy and the extra booty.

So I miss that, that voluptuousness.

Um,

And that was an attraction early on in our relationship, to me anyways, being able to lean up next to her and feel her, for lack of a better word, draping over me or onto me.

That's no longer an option.

Now it's cuddling, and it's cuddling as tight and closely as we can, or as I can.

And that's the extent of the intimacy.

Yeah.

I'm at a loss for why there's no physical intimacy or hasn't been any.

It was erotic.

It was comforting.

It was nice.

It was sensual.

And that's no longer the case.